Abdicate

I'm getting more and more used to the idea of saying "no".

It really is a strange concept to me.

Today I wanted "just one more slice of cheese..."

No.

"Come on, just a little chunk of skinless turkey..."

No.

"Maybe a couple raw almonds?"

No.

And that was it. 

Final answer.

Because I came to the realization, that every time I say no to those seemingly insignificant things, I'm creating a greater change within my body that's only going to bring me closer and closer to my goal.

And not to mention, I feel strong.

Today, I walked around the mall with my boyfriend, hand in hand; visiting stores and gazing upon thousands and thousands of cute outfits just begging to be worn.

Surrounding us on all sides were the shoppers.

We decided to stop inside a little candy stop, which was actually sort of my decision.
I just wanted to go in there and look.
I find looking to be the most intensely pleasurable experience- it brings no pain or guilt.

All the colors arranged in an aesthetically appealing manner, set in large barrels strewn through the store; it was like dancing through my childhood.

I didn't intend to eat any of it, no sir.

Just merely watch.

Whilst perusing the stores, I engaged in one of my most favorite activities of all time- people watching. People watching is a source of intense entertainment for me, an event which becomes downright comical when at the mall.

I see so many girls in the middle of butt fuck winter sporting shorts and tank tops- which is not really weird, considering I do live in the Sunshine Out Your Ass State. No, that wasn't the issue... It was the size of the girls wearing short shorts that was truly obscene. I found staring at the cottage cheese rolls being clung to by a jean colored glad wrap so disgusting, that it almost made me gag on my own mental insults.

But hey, to each their own.

I just know when I was fat, I did not go around in booty shorts.

Enough on that matter.

~

Intake:

1/2 cup egg whites with cayenne

couple slices turkey

2 slices sharp cheddar cheese

I feel today was a very good day, however I'm feeling a little thirsty...

Perhaps I'll go remedy that now.
I hope everything continues to be well with everyone out in the blogosphere, and I'll sign off with only one piece of advice...

Just say no.

xx