Friday, May 6, 2011

Self- Fulfilling

Right now, I'm getting over a serious bout of the flu.
More weight has been lost, thank whatever-Gods-are-out-there.
I'm proceeding much slower now then I ever have before...
I have to consciously tell myself not to freak out, as I am so prone to do.

These days, I'm thinking more and more of my future.
I know I'm going into the United States Military, that much is certain.
It's just the how that gets me.

My biggest fear used to die a failure.
Now, it's the fear of me living in it.
Fear, is sort of like that.

Surprises you, denies you.
Turns you into that shell of a person you were afraid of becoming in the first place.
It's own self-fulfilling prophecy.


Hopefully, I'll spend tonight with the boyfriend...
I really do miss him.
Pretty soon here, it'll be four months.
With him, I look forward to the future.

"Do not live in the past.
Rejoice, because you have a future...
Which is more than most."

1 comment:

  1. I really like that quote! I know what you mean about thinking about the future. I am always thinking about it!!!!

    I have come to realize though that if I do not live for the moment I am in than when I get to my future my past will have ment nothing!

    Also I am in school so I just try to do the best I can at that because I know it will determine my future. I dont know it seems nice in words but my head is still messed up when I think about where I will be in 10 years.

    Stay strong. you are beautiful!
    <3 Jess