I wish I had explanations.
But, because I have very few answers to my copious amounts of questions...
It's also the very source of my pain, at times.
Life comes at you fast.
Faster, than you ever want it too.
Blink and your life passes you by.
I just don't want to be caught...
Caught in what could've been, of what I feel was cheated from me...
I am the person I am for a reason.
And goddamnit, that is what I'll tell myself.
Because I don't think I could stand it otherwise.
Why do I keep coming back?
To elaborate on my current plan a little, I'm going to be cutting back, and staying away from fatty foods in a rather safe manner until I hit 118, with no major restrictions or dietary weirdness.
Then, when I hit 118, I'll be doing a modified low carb diet to suit my needs, until I hit 110.
That's the only thing I'm worrying about right now.
Perhaps that is the real issue.