Monday, October 3, 2011

Buzz


113.7
The scale agrees with me this morning.
It's hard to get out of bed.

My head is pounding.
My hands are shaking.
The vertigo is crippling.
But it's all for a worthwhile cause... 

I will be thin.
No questions asked.

I'm feeling accomplished.
Only 3 pounds away from a new recent low weight.
I'm going through severe sugar withdrawals, my body's outcry against what I'm doing to it.

I'm in a detox, of sorts.
My mind is hazy.
Eventually, my body will adjust- whether it be in a couple of days, or a week.

I just need to focus, keep my eyes on the goal.
104. 104. 104. 104. 104.

I need it, like I need air.

Slowly, slowly....

I'm getting there.

Even if it's only one pound at a time.

2 comments:

  1. So glad to see you back :) have missed reading your blog! You're doing amazing :) x

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  2. That's so sweet of you. (:
    It feels good to be back.
    I might being doing good, but I'll be doing better soon.
    :D

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